《對不起,我不美》
自從有記憶以來,我就對自己的長相很沒自信。我恨我的外表,尤其是臉。
黑眼圈、內斜視、蒙古摺、單眼皮(混合式?)、蒜頭鼻、山根塌陷、嘴唇乾裂、滿臉痘、疤與痣、etc.
右眉角上的小疤痕,其實是多年前我在看著鏡中的自己時,在對鏡子裡的人的醜陋感到無助與怨恨,極度悲傷之下把鏡子拿起來不停的往額頭砸,破了鏡子也破了相,因此而留下的傷疤。我還記得血流進鏡子裂縫的畫面,現在回憶起來覺得頗具藝術風格🥴
雖然近幾年接觸了很多DJ和偶像明星等公眾人物後,才明白其實他們也是妝爆炸濃、花了很多錢整形、或照片修超大,但依然改變不了我對自己的長相很沒有自信的事實。
「人家有錢請化妝師、有錢整形、有錢請健身教練,但我沒有。我只能維持這幅醜樣。」
(相信我,現在99%的帥哥美女網紅偶像都有整形,有些連腹肌都是靠打針💉)
自從開始做網紅DJ之後,這份不安全感就更加深沉了。各位看到我比較好看的照片或影片,十之八九都是有化妝+修圖。尤其是宣傳照,根本修到連自己都認不出來是自己,甚至左眼是用右眼鏡像複製過去貼上而來。
不化妝,不修圖,很醜,很丟臉。
其實多少會帶點罪惡感,覺得修圖修很大是欺騙粉絲,更是欺騙自己。但為了競爭,任何宣傳照釋出前一定要修。假設周湯豪的臉是100分,我的臉只有20分,但上妝+修圖後的我有60分,雖然仍遠比不上周湯豪,但至少有40分的進步了,讓我能比59分以下的人更加賞心悅目一些🥸
如果這張照片很醜,讓你看了覺得噁心,我完全可以理解。我也覺得這張照片好難看。
我已經接受了自己醜陋的事實,不代表我不恨自己。我每天都怨恨自己的醜,但這就是我,沒錢整形的我。
對不起,我不美。
◇本照片以 iPhone 11 Pro 內建前鏡頭+內建螢幕補光燈 + 內建相機app 拍攝,昨晚玩尼爾時順手拿起手機拍,無修圖直接上傳。
For as long as I remember, I’ve been super insecure about my appearance.
Dark circles, crossed eyes, epicanthus, single eyelid(hybrid?), garlic nose, low nasion, dry lips, acne, scars, and moles, etc.
The small scar above my right eyebrow was actually caused by me smashing the mirror against my forehead repeatedly, cuz I was frustrated and felt helpless by the face in the mirror. I still remember the blood flowing thru the cracks in the mirror. It actually seems kinda artistic in my memory🥴
Although I’ve met some DJs and idols and realize that they either wear heavy makeup, spent a ton of money on plastic surgery, or photoshopping a ton, it still doesn’t change the fact that I’m insecure about my look.
“They have the capital to hire a makeup artist, do plastic surgery, hire personal trainers, but I don’t. I’m set with this ugly ass face.”
(Trust me, almost all pretty idols nowadays have gone thru plastic surgeries, male or female.)
Since I’ve been doing this influencer-DJ thing, the insecurity has only increased. In all the pics and vids that I looked good, I’ve been wearing heavy makeup or done extend photoshopping. Especially the promo pics, it doesn’t look like me at all. The left eye was even copied from the right eye.
No makeup, no retouching, that’ll be ugly, it’s embarrassing.
It actually makes me feel kinda guilty for retouching the pics. It feels like I’m lying to my fans and myself. But the competition is severe. Any promo pics have to be extra-retouched before posting. If Usher is 100, my face is only 20, but after makeup and retouching is 60, although still no way near Usher, at least I got an improvement of 40. That allows me to look better than everyone below 59.🥸
If you think I look ugly in this pic that makes you want to puke, I totally understand, cuz I thought the same.
I accept the fact that I’m ugly, it doesn’t mean I don’t hate myself. However, this is me. The me that can’t afford plastic surgery.
I’m sorry, I’m ugly.
Photo shot on front cam of an iPhone 11 Pro + built-in screen flash + built-in camera app. Taken when I was playing NieR: Automata last night. Raw pic no edits.
同時也有8部Youtube影片,追蹤數超過139萬的網紅Jessica Vu,也在其Youtube影片中提到,another summer makeup look? u got that right bihh, in this video i'll show u this SUPER simple bronzy makeup look + share some tips i use to keep my m...
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eyes makeup pic 在 Makeup Artist Anthony H. Nguyen Facebook 的精選貼文
BTS look at @katyperry ‘s icy eyes on set for the ‘Cozy Little Christmas’ music video out now! Tried to take this pic carefully as to not drop my phone in this giant martini glass of milk. ❄️❄️❄️
Director: @watts_la
Styling: @bcompleted
Makeup: @anthonyhnguyenmakeup
Hair: @hairbyiggy
Nails: @kimmiekyees
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eyes makeup pic 在 Natalia Ng Facebook 的最讚貼文
A coconut a day, keeps anyone away.... if you throw it hard enough.
FACT: These were the last known photographs I have with my fav @katespadeny sunglasses.... it belongs to either the ocean, the island or between the nooks and crannies of the CLS450 Mercedes. Pinning this pic up in commemoration of all the jolly memories we had together, not only shading my eyes from the harsh UV rays but also the harsh judgements when I don’t wear makeup. I love you, my sunnies! Perhaps one day you’ll find your way back onto my face again... #RIP wherever you are. Even if it has to be on someone else’s face...😔 #mourning #loss
Ah, seemed like only yesterday I was laughing in the sun with sand between my toes and the ocean breeze in my hair at the beautiful beach of Emerald Bay...... because it was 😂 K, stop being so dang emo. I had a fantastic week! I’ll find a new pair of fav sunnies, chin up!!
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eyes makeup pic 在 Jessica Vu Youtube 的最讚貼文
another summer makeup look? u got that right bihh, in this video i'll show u this SUPER simple bronzy makeup look + share some tips i use to keep my makeup plastered to my face during this hot hot time of year ??
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SORRY for not recording me doing my face makeup! i was LIVID when i glanced at the viewfinder and saw it wasn't recording but the other footage is completely fine so i decided to post anyways
o and did anybody notice both songs were by jay park? ? haha his summer songs are so good
lol i said this video was going to be colorful and then i ended up going for a neutral eye but i meannnn the lips make up for it right
i haven't been filming much because i've been going through some family things but i'm trying to bulk film now so don't give up on me if i skip a week! i promise i am working hard!
if the thumbnail looks different, it's bc i filmed and took pics on different days! the thumbnail pic was on a day when i used a self-tanner too but it's the same makeup look
i know i said i'd be in korea by now in the last video but it was delayed due to aforementioned family things and other external circumstances so i updated the description! i will actually be going 7/9-7/26! look forward to hauls n vlogs ^^
hope u all are having the loveliest day!
♡ xo
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P R O D U C T S
EYES:
ABH Dipbrow Pomade (Ash Brown)
ABH Pro Pencil (Base 1)
Too Faced Chocolate Brow-nie Cocoa Powder Brow Pencil (Deep Brown)
Etude House Keep My Brows Fixer http://bit.ly/2txYSKv
Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer (Eden)
Laura Mercier Translucent Loose Setting Powder
Makeup Revolution Ultra Bronze Palette
ABH Light to Medium Contour Kit (Havana)
Too Faced Love Light Prismatic Highlighter (You Light Up My Life)
ABH Single Eye Shadow (Topaz)
Duo Brush-On Adhesive With Vitamins (Clear)
Eylure Luxe Lashes (Baroque)
L'Oreal Telescopic Carbon Black Mascara
FACE:
Urban Decay De-Slick Oil-Control Makeup Setting Spray
Heimish Artless Glow Base SPF50+ PA+++ http://bit.ly/2tvEaLO
NARS Liquid Illuminator (Copacabana)
Maybelline Dream Liquid Mousse Foundation (Sandy Beige 60)
NYX Total Control Drop Foundation (True Beige)
Maybelline Master Conceal Concealer (20 Light)
Laura Mercier Translucent Loose Setting Powder
ABH Light to Medium Contour Kit (Fawn)
Physician's Formula Butter Bronzer Murumuru Butter Bronzer (Bronzer)
Glossier Cloud Paint Cream Blush (Beam)
ABH Sun Dipped Glow Kit (Summer)
Urban Decay All Nighter Long-Lasting Makeup Setting Spray
LIPS:
NUDESTIX Intense Matte Lip + Cheek Pencil (Purity)
NUDESTIX Intense Matte Lip + Cheek Pencil (Stiletto)
ABH Pro Pencil (Base 1)
Kiss New York Professional Matte Liquid Lipstick (Celeste)
Too Faced Melted Matte Liquified Lipstick (Jawbreaker)
CONTACT LENSES:
Solotica Hidrocor Mel http://bit.ly/2noqdes
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T O O L S
ABH Duo Brush (#12)
It Cosmetics Airbrush All-Over Shadow Brush (#119)
It Cosmetics Airbrush Precision Shadow Brush (#112)
Sigma Shader Lid Brush (E56)
Real Techniques Miracle Complexion Sponge
Newchic Large Brush https://goo.gl/BJCDHj
Real Techniques Core Collection Contour Brush
Sigma Eye Shading Brush (E55)
Sigma Medium Angled Shading Brush (E70)
Sigma Tapered Blending Brush (E40)
Sigma affiliate link: http://sigma-beauty.7eer.net/c/364809/146780/2835
T E C H
Camera: Canon Rebel T6i
Lens: Kit Lens EF-S 18-55mm f/3.5-5.6 IS STM Lens
Mic: Rode Videomic Go
SD Card: Lexar SDXC Class 10 64 GB
Editing Program: Final Cut Pro X 10.3.2 + iMovie 10.1.4
W E A R I N G
Thumbnail Sunglasses: itGirl Shop http://bit.ly/2tynG4Z ("luxejessy10" for 10% off your order)
Intro/Outro Top: Pacsun
Pink Top: American Apparel Solid Long Sleeve Ponte Crop Raglan (Speckle Pink)
Earrings: Claire's lmao
Necklace: Vietnam
♪ M U S I C ♪
Jay Park - DRIVE (ft. GRAY)
Jay Park - My Last (ft. Loco & GRAY)
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eyes makeup pic 在 luv2bfree Youtube 的最佳解答
突然思い立ってブルーのスモーキーアイを撮影してみました。
夏の夜っぽいかなと。どうでしょう?
久しぶりのガッツリメイクです。
(インスタに上げてた白黒の写真、実はこんなカラーでした!)
recently, i didnt know what kinda makeup i should film and suddenly, this look came up on my mind. hope you will like it!
(i put a black and white pic on instagram of this look. yes it was blue!)
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NYX jumbo pencil in black bean
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MAC e/s in freshwater
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MAC eyekohl in Smolder
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MAC e/s in Shimmermoss
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MAC e/s in nylon
http://www.maccosmetics.jp/product/shaded/154/363/Products/Eyes/Shadow/Eye-Shadow/small-eye-shadow/index.tmpl
Makeup Geek e/s in Creme brulee
https://www.makeupgeek.com/makeup-geek-eyeshadow-pan-creme-brulee.html
dejavu lasting fine eyeliner
http://amzn.to/2aPkGad
ELF | Cool Bronzer palette
http://www.iherb.com/e-l-f-cosmetics-color-bronzer-cool-0-53-oz-15-g/66997?rcode=gvh296
KIKO | Radiant touch cream stick highlighter #100
http://www.kikocosmetics.com/en-gb/make-up/face/illuminating-powders/Radiant-Touch-Creamy-Stick-Highlighter/p-KM00106003
Lancome Hypnose maxi black
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NYX soft matte lip cream in Stockholm
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